My life is in the crapper and i really need some help...i think i am depressed or just extremly confused.?

So i told my friend macey that i liked a guy named ryan and at our school the football payers give their jersey to people they like. so macey, with my halfway permission went up to him and kept bugging him and bugging him until he said a dont know and walked away. so tonight at the football game i asked him if i could wear it and he said no. not my only problem though. ok so there are 2 boys that i liked before and we went out. clyde and brian. brian is really nice, not to mention hot and clyde has a girlfriend and well frankly isnt. but he is super nice and super funny. clyde asked me out a few weeks ago nad i said no and later he said that he only liked me cuz he thought he was gonna get laid. no i wouldnt do that. but now that he has a girlfriend i really want him. and brian too! brian is nice but it didnt work when we went out and yah but that was 6th grade now 8th and he barely knows i exist now but i want him to know. and then there is this guy nic who happens to be my almost best friend but i liked him like 1 week ago and then it got awkwrd and he started making fun of me because he said i had a sick mind and sick jokes. i asked other people and they said the same too! but the thing is they laugh at it all! i dont get it and now i feel embarred and i want to change everything about me and that is all my problems and i need them fixed! and then i really want to kiss a guy too! idk y i just do and i want a bf and i just need some advice on my problems oh and y do guys think girl on girl action is y? WHO DO I WANT AND HOW DO I FIGURE OUT MY LIFE! 10 pts to best answer